hala lods same tayo ng situation hahaha, that was my first too and sya marami na, and sinabi nya sakin sa lahat ng past relationship nya ako lang daw nag trato sa kanya ng tama and sakin nya naramdaman yung pure genuine love, naka tag paako dun sa post sa tiktok na may caption "when you finally get over your traumas and felt genuine love because of him" something like that di ko na masyado matandaan yung exact words but ganyan yung meaning. i said to myself na kahit anong mangyari hihintayin kong mag mature isip nya, syempre first time ko din and i want my first to be my last. but as time goes parang inu untiunti naako, hanggang sa natauhan ako and i realized na ganun nga yung mga sinabi ko sa first comment ko. i keep sharing my pieces to build her again but i didn't realize i have nothing left na pala. a mature relationship will never be like that, the moment i found a mature one, i am verry much more happy na. never know this is what it feels having a mature relationship. marami kang matutunan na good things. one of them is give and take. hindi yung you keep giving her but she can't reciprocate or appreciate your efforts. respect yourself. let it be a lesson and proceed to find a wife material not a material wife. lods pakiusap lang if you come up to that realization, please balikan moko dito.