xmen3xtreme
Journeyman
Its been 6mos already. But i still miss my ex. I still cant moved on. I dont know why. Maybe bcz she's my first love? Or bcz i dont want to accept that shes not with me anymore. But i know deep inside of me, i still have lingers for her. Ive done all i can to forget her. Forced myself to work in 3mos without having a break or days off. Until now. Coz if i stay at my room, even while playing ROM, spending all my money to gadgets, and laptop, or drive myself from hunger, my heart still aches and most of the time, i cried. Hahahahahaha i know its not good coz im a male. But its been rough, here living alone in saudi. No one to talk or share your thoughts. My mind and heart conflicts coz my mind tells me that she had someone as a replacement for me, that i didnt deserve her. That ive done all that i could have done. Going from manila to butuan in my days off before. Adjust my schedules to her so that i can talk to her even a minute is suffice. Planned for the future including her, even sacrificed my sake for a better salary and worked overseas just for her. So she can be proud and to make her future where life is easy besides me. Ive given her a promise ring, coz i know shes the one for me.I dont know why she still left me with another man. Hahahaha but my heart is still hoping for one more chance. A chance to talk to her when i got home and fly again to butuan. And hoping to fix everything. I feel like ive lost everything. Everything ive planned and saved for. Im somewhat lost in the way. Nothing to go back to.

