🔒 Closed I feel so exhausted🤧

[Tree Mondragon]

I feel so exhausted, I feel empty, heavy hearts, never had my Breakfast, lunch and dinner sinced yesterday. I don’t have appetite. I feel like no one can understand me. No one would love hear my side. I really feel blue. Maybe I just came out in this world to be look like this. I don’t have enough sleep yet. I am so bothered. So stress, so tired, so drained! People around may think Im good and okay. I never heard someone would ask me “Hey how was your day” sometimes, I think my Mom won’t even bother to ask me “Nak, are you okay? Are you tired” or maybe I’m just self-centered. Even in my job only few will just said “Hey you got the highest Scorecard, you are the top of our team” but mostly I just felt I am abandoned. Actually, it is! I am also a product of a broken family. Even my friends no one would ask if I am okay or not. What peopl around me might say or think Strong Independent Woman. But me deep inside. I’m crumpled, torn and hurt. I just divert my feelings to Music and made people laugh. I am sorry for the rant guys. This is the site that I could lean on to. I don’t want to rant on Facebook and twitter. ‘Coz many people knew me there. Rather than here. Only Five people know me here personally.

And sometimes, it is much better to rant on a strangers. When I walk in the street casually. I saw people who is living in the street. I actually talk to them and give some high five, even if I don’t even know them. Just to make them feel that they are “human” too.

Sorry being Overdrammatic. I’m just sleepless. And not okay

 

[dedaa]

sige po

 

[Phc - frenzufficiale]

hey, hey, are you drunk? peace drama mu? hahahah... mas madrama pa ko sayo.. charrr... joke lang! ganyan talaga ang life ay weather weather nga lng... pabago bago ang takbo minsan masaya, minsan malungkot at minsan nakakapraning... hahahah! siguro kaya di nila tinatanong nila yun sayo kasi feeling nila your strong than anyone else, yun parang kaya mo lahat sa lahat ng bagay... parang your amazing person... ako nga e never ako nakatanggap sa family at friends ko ng ganyan puro na lng pangungutya or pamimintas natatanggap ko di ko makita yun approach nila sa akin kahit ganon deadma ko sila never nila ako naintindihan... hahaha yaw ko na naiiyak na ko... tuloy ko pa ba? wag na lng basta para sa akin... wag mu na lng sila pansinin.. kung ano lang yun maipakita sayo gang dun na lang siguro yun kasi lam nila na at naniniwala sayo na kaya mo naman e... okay!! i hope, mahimasmasan kana at mabasa mo to ng buo... hahahaha hirap kaya magtype at mag isip ng sasabihin.. lol

 

[Tree Mondragon]

hey, hey, are you drunk? peace drama mu? hahahah... mas madrama pa ko sayo.. charrr... joke lang! ganyan talaga ang life ay weather weather nga lng... pabago bago ang takbo minsan masaya, minsan malungkot at minsan nakakapraning... hahahah! siguro kaya di nila tinatanong nila yun sayo kasi feeling nila your strong than anyone else, yun parang kaya mo lahat sa lahat ng bagay... parang your amazing person... ako nga e never ako nakatanggap sa family at friends ko ng ganyan puro na lng pangungutya or pamimintas natatanggap ko di ko makita yun approach nila sa akin kahit ganon deadma ko sila never nila ako naintindihan... hahaha yaw ko na naiiyak na ko... tuloy ko pa ba? wag na lng basta para sa akin... wag mu na lng sila pansinin.. kung ano lang yun maipakita sayo gang dun na lang siguro yun kasi lam nila na at naniniwala sayo na kaya mo naman e... okay!! i hope, mahimasmasan kana at mabasa mo to ng buo... hahahaha hirap kaya magtype at mag isip ng sasabihin.. lol

Salamat. Naiyak naman ako sayo. Di ko mapigilan luha ko. Nagising ako kanina 2am gang ngayon di pa rin makatulog. Ewan ko ba di ko rin mawari sarili ko. I’ve carry so much in my shoulders

 

[Deleted member 1523148]

Are you okay? how's your day?

 

[Tree Mondragon]

Are you okay? how's your day?

Don’t really what would be my day today. Same routine. There some hardships add up.

 

[Phc - frenzufficiale]

Salamat. Naiyak naman ako sayo. Di ko mapigilan luha ko. Nagising ako kanina 2am gang ngayon di pa rin makatulog. Ewan ko ba di ko rin mawari sarili ko. I’ve carry so much in my shoulders

i don't know.. di ko na din alam gagawin ko kung ano pa ba mangyari! siguro ayun na lang hinahanap ko maging peaceful na lang... ay shocks natulo luha ko! hahaha yaw ko na sawang sawa na ko sa ngyayari sa akin! kaya if i were you, pero kung tingnan mas swerte ka kasi my work ka may family ka na handa tumulong sayo at mga kaibigan na lagi nandiyan nakasupport sayo! ako never pa ko nagkawork kahit gustong gusto ko pero parang nahihinaan ako sa sarili ko baka di ko kaya kasi parang tingin ko para ako inaapi ng maraming tao di ko alam... kasi nadala na kasi ko noon lagi ko binubully kaya natatakot ako baka ganon mangyari dati yaw ko makipagkaibigan kasi baka ganon sila yaw ko makipag usap sa iba... kaya talaga sabog na sabog na talaga isip ko! kaya kapag nagdrama ako sabi ko mas madrama ko sa iba... hahahaha! kaya siguro di ako natutong mainlove dahil diyan di ko alam yun totoong pagmamahal para sa akin! natuto ko mainlove di dahil sa crush o ano pang dahilan ng pagmamahal ng pamilya siguro sa ibang tao... ayun! kaya siguro easy lang ako makapagsabi ng i love you sa ibang tao... kahit ikaw sinasabihan ko ng i love you or kahit sino dito... kaya siguro ganon! ewan di ko din alam... hahahaha! drama ko..

 

[jayendecastro]

The fact that ur admitting to urself that ur not okay is a great start. Atleast naassess mo na something's off. Tho vague, the more u look into it mas makikita mo ung root ng anxiety mo. The more kasi na hindi mo iaddress un specifically, it will branch out to other anxieties u have until overwhelming na na u cant isolate kung alin uunhin mo mo.easier said than done tho.

And i also understand ung mga ganang babae na strong-willed, independent or happy ang personality pero deep inside eh halo halo na ang emotions. While its easy to talk to strangers, its better na u discuss that with someone who knows you. It doesnt have to be as drastic as ranting on facebuk or flood of tweets. A dm wud be nice. Yung outside perspective is a great help. As long as its warranted and from people who actually know you.

There are people na di mo na need magexplain, gets na agad nila na may prob ka or wat...but there are also people na need mo tlaga iverbalize ang issues mo. We all have our own individual issues and asking people to notice ours without hinting on anything is a bit self-centered. Ako i can notice the little things pag may iba sa mga kasama ko especially since everyday ko sila kasama. But sometimes im pre occupied din to notice those things and so are other people so i wont blame them if they dont know i have a prob.

It ur afraid or ashamed na iopen un, then pasimplehan mo ng signs. And if those people around u really do care and know you that well, they will surely notice.

Basta the best pa din is to talk. Kahit di maresolve agad or ever .important thing is ur sharing the burden and hearing other people's perspective.

 

[Tree Mondragon]

i don't know.. di ko na din alam gagawin ko kung ano pa ba mangyari! siguro ayun na lang hinahanap ko maging peaceful na lang... ay shocks natulo luha ko! hahaha yaw ko na sawang sawa na ko sa ngyayari sa akin! kaya if i were you, pero kung tingnan mas swerte ka kasi my work ka may family ka na handa tumulong sayo at mga kaibigan na lagi nandiyan nakasupport sayo! ako never pa ko nagkawork kahit gustong gusto ko pero parang nahihinaan ako sa sarili ko baka di ko kaya kasi parang tingin ko para ako inaapi ng maraming tao di ko alam... kasi nadala na kasi ko noon lagi ko binubully kaya natatakot ako baka ganon mangyari dati yaw ko makipagkaibigan kasi baka ganon sila yaw ko makipag usap sa iba... kaya talaga sabog na sabog na talaga isip ko! kaya kapag nagdrama ako sabi ko mas madrama ko sa iba... hahahaha! kaya siguro di ako natutong mainlove dahil diyan di ko alam yun totoong pagmamahal para sa akin! natuto ko mainlove di dahil sa crush o ano pang dahilan ng pagmamahal ng pamilya siguro sa ibang tao... ayun! kaya siguro easy lang ako makapagsabi ng i love you sa ibang tao... kahit ikaw sinasabihan ko ng i love you or kahit sino dito... kaya siguro ganon! ewan di ko din alam... hahahaha! drama ko..

Parehas tayong sawa na sa nangyayari sa sarili natin. Minalas ng todo. Hahaha sobrang malas walang makakapantay. Yung pamilya ko di ko naman masabihan kase parang baliwala lang ako sa kanila. My friends? They are busy with their own life. Friend ko lang ata sila sa inuman ang kakulitan. Life is so unfair. I f*cked up. Bc life f*cks me everytime. Disgusting

 

[Tree Mondragon]

The fact that ur admitting to urself that ur not okay is a great start. Atleast naassess mo na something's off. Tho vague, the more u look into it mas makikita mo ung root ng anxiety mo. The more kasi na hindi mo iaddress un specifically, it will branch out to other anxieties u have until overwhelming na na u cant isolate kung alin uunhin mo mo.easier said than done tho.

And i also understand ung mga ganang babae na strong-willed, independent or happy ang personality pero deep inside eh halo halo na ang emotions. While its easy to talk to strangers, its better na u discuss that with someone who knows you. It doesnt have to be as drastic as ranting on facebuk or flood of tweets. A dm wud be nice. Yung outside perspective is a great help. As long as its warranted and from people who actually know you.

There are people na di mo na need magexplain, gets na agad nila na may prob ka or wat...but there are also people na need mo tlaga iverbalize ang issues mo. We all have our own individual issues and asking people to notice ours without hinting on anything is a bit self-centered. Ako i can notice the little things pag may iba sa mga kasama ko especially since everyday ko sila kasama. But sometimes im pre occupied din to notice those things and so are other people so i wont blame them if they dont know i have a prob.

It ur afraid or ashamed na iopen un, then pasimplehan mo ng signs. And if those people around u really do care and know you that well, they will surely notice.

Basta the best pa din is to talk. Kahit di maresolve agad or ever .important thing is ur sharing the burden and hearing other people's perspective.

I always listen and give advices to the people who look down their selves. But when it comes to me? I can’t even take the advice. Can’t even use it. Or maybe I just don’t want to take it yet? Sometimes. I really don’t know what’s happenin. And most specially I don’t want to hurt other people’s feeling. Or maybe I may not enough? Just like nothing but burden maybe? Hahaha it is not easy to be me. Always fighting my battle to win but ended up lose. I am st*pid, id*ot. I can tell that!

 

[pOnietA]

I always listen and give advices to the people who look down their selves. But when it comes to me? I can’t even take the advice. Can’t even use it. Or maybe I just don’t want to take it yet? Sometimes. I really don’t know what’s happenin. And most specially I don’t want to hurt other people’s feeling. Or maybe I may not enough? Just like nothing but burden maybe? Hahaha it is not easy to be me. Always fighting my battle to win but ended up lose. I am st*pid, id*ot. I can tell that!

magpahinga kana muna, matulog ka! usap tayo mamaya. .

 

[jayendecastro]

I always listen and give advices to the people who look down their selves. But when it comes to me? I can’t even take the advice. Can’t even use it. Or maybe I just don’t want to take it yet? Sometimes. I really don’t know what’s happenin. And most specially I don’t want to hurt other people’s feeling. Or maybe I may not enough? Just like nothing but burden maybe? Hahaha it is not easy to be me. Always fighting my battle to win but ended up lose. I am st*pid, id*ot. I can tell that!

What battles are u fighting?? And how do u know ur losing?? Sometimes a "losing" battle is just a "delayed victory".. it depends on how u choose to look at it.

Take ur own pill din..hehehe.. apply it to urself. Its easier if ur open sa struggles mo, without the overdramatics of corz, ung just enough for people to realize na "hey, she's not perfect. She's just like us."

Kaya nga nakakapg advice ka kasi somehow nilalagay mo sarili mo sa situa nila..and thats really not just u giving ur advice but also u sharing something about urself. Mahirap nmn magbigay ng advice sa mga tao kung ikaw mismo di mo alam sinasabi mo db. So partly, ur sharing na din non

 

[Phc - frenzufficiale]

Parehas tayong sawa na sa nangyayari sa sarili natin. Minalas ng todo. Hahaha sobrang malas walang makakapantay. Yung pamilya ko di ko naman masabihan kase parang baliwala lang ako sa kanila. My friends? They are busy with their own life. Friend ko lang ata sila sa inuman ang kakulitan. Life is so unfair. I f*cked up. Bc life f*cks me everytime. Disgusting

true yan... Grrrr... nakakagigil na minsan! yun maiinis kana lang... ako kasi kinikimkim ko yun damdamin ko, gusto ko sabihin pero bakit ganon di ko kaya sabihin ang hirap hirap ilabas? yun tipong gusto mo magmura, magwala di ko talaga kaya! parang feeling ko ang sama sama ko tao pag ganon ako.. ays di ko na talaga alam... siguro ayun yun weak ko sa sarili ko... nahihinaan ako sa sarili ko di ko kaya nagagawa ng iba... kaya yun iba nagagalit at naiinis sa akin kaya gusto nila magbago ako pero may kunting improve daw ako kasi dumadaldal na daw ako... yun lang napapansin sa akin! ahhahaha kainis... sa dami dami papansinin yun pa pag imik ko jusko Lord, di ko alam talaga... so so so damn! .... feeling ko ako na yun pinakamalas na tao sa lahat! haist...

 

[Tree Mondragon]

true yan... Grrrr... nakakagigil na minsan! yun maiinis kana lang... ako kasi kinikimkim ko yun damdamin ko, gusto ko sabihin pero bakit ganon di ko kaya sabihin ang hirap hirap ilabas? yun tipong gusto mo magmura, magwala di ko talaga kaya! parang feeling ko ang sama sama ko tao pag ganon ako.. ays di ko na talaga alam... siguro ayun yun weak ko sa sarili ko... nahihinaan ako sa sarili ko di ko kaya nagagawa ng iba... kaya yun iba nagagalit at naiinis sa akin kaya gusto nila magbago ako pero may kunting improve daw ako kasi dumadaldal na daw ako... yun lang napapansin sa akin! ahhahaha kainis... sa dami dami papansinin yun pa pag imik ko jusko Lord, di ko alam talaga... so so so damn! .... feeling ko ako na yun pinakamalas na tao sa lahat! haist...

Hindi ka malas, sa katunayan sa ating dalawa ako yun. Pero oo marami kase differences ang mga tao. Minsan na buburst nila feelings nila. yung iba naman nakakaburst sila. Pero kahit anong mangyari wala naman tayong magawa kase yun lang kaya natin magawa. yun lang tayo ka capable. Yung mga ganung bagay?

 

[Tree Mondragon]

What battles are u fighting?? And how do u know ur losing?? Sometimes a "losing" battle is just a "delayed victory".. it depends on how u choose to look at it.

Take ur own pill din..hehehe.. apply it to urself. Its easier if ur open sa struggles mo, without the overdramatics of corz, ung just enough for people to realize na "hey, she's not perfect. She's just like us."

Kaya nga nakakapg advice ka kasi somehow nilalagay mo sarili mo sa situa nila..and thats really not just u giving ur advice but also u sharing something about urself. Mahirap nmn magbigay ng advice sa mga tao kung ikaw mismo di mo alam sinasabi mo db. So partly, ur sharing na din non

I'm just running out of words with my own self. I could've know my self. Or maybe I will never find myself. Don't know. but as of the moment my mind is floating. My head is aching. Need to take med nalang sguro. Thanks anyway. with those lenghthy words. Your kindly gesture is deeply appreciated

 

[zioj]

Kailangan mo lang mag relaks ts.
mag jollibee ka tapos mag inom ka mamaya.
ang pakiramdam na nagiisa ka ay sintomas ng depresyon.
wag mo po balikatin ang lahat.
wag mo rin dibdibin.
may Dyos ka pong malalapitan.

kung may inaantay ka naman, dadating din yan.
wait mo lang sya.

 

[Tree Mondragon]

Kailangan mo lang mag relaks ts.
mag jollibee ka tapos mag inom ka mamaya.
ang pakiramdam na nagiisa ka ay sintomas ng depresyon.
wag mo po balikatin ang lahat.
wag mo rin dibdibin.
may Dyos ka pong malalapitan.

kung may inaantay ka naman, dadating din yan.
wait mo lang sya.

Don't have appetite yet to eat something. parang busog pa ako. mamaya sguro iinum ako pagkauwi ko sa bahay. emotional lang sguro ako kaya dinadamdam ko.

 

[zioj]

Don't have appetite yet to eat something. parang busog pa ako. mamaya sguro iinum ako pagkauwi ko sa bahay. emotional lang sguro ako kaya dinadamdam ko.

luh, may jowa ka ba ts?

 

[Tree Mondragon]

luh, may jowa ka ba ts?

dinadamdam ko mga life challenges ko.

 

[zioj]

dinadamdam ko mga life challenges ko.

just broken ?