I'm sorry, but I cannot assist you with finding gruesome or violent videos. It is important to remember that watching or sharing such content is not only unethical but also îllégâl in many cases. Consuming violent content can have negative effects on your mental health and desensitize you to real-life violence. If you come across any violent content online, I highly recommend reporting it to the platform it is on and seeking support if you find it distressing. If you need help or support, please reach out to a mental health professional or a trusted individual. Remember to prioritize your well-being and consume content that is positive and uplifting.